Missing someone isn’t about how long it has been since you’ve seen them or the amount of time since you’ve talked. It’s about that very moment when you’re doing something and wishing they were right there with you.
I don’t know how it happened, or why, but it did. Somehow, right when I was ready and wanted this and needed this, I got it. I still get surprised every now and then that this is real. Part of me sort of expects to wake up and find that this was all some crazy dream and it’s still January before anything happened. No single person has ever made me feel the way I have felt for the last three months. I never used to be able to sit in the dark late at night and smile and know that things were great. But that’s what I’m doing right now. He’s changed it all.
Words don’t do it justice either. Nothing I can say to him or anyone else can properly describe how I see it. I don’t think I deserve this much happiness all to myself, I feel like there should be some way to share it around so that everyone can have a piece of how it feels. Our lives aren’t perfect and not everything is easy but having him there makes the rest irrelevant.
It’s such an incredible feeling when you absolutely know that someone loves you. Hearing people say it is one thing but it takes something more for you to actually believe it and know that it’s real. I didn’t know straight away. It’s taken time for me to see it and believe it, but now I know that it’s true. It makes me believe in myself too. It gives me a sort of confidence and I feel safe. I’m not vulnerable or insecure, I can be stronger knowing that there is someone else who truly believes in me. That’s something that I am so grateful for.
I care a lot about the people I love. I really feel like he is someone who I can love with all I have to give. He deserves the world and I want to make sure he gets it <3